I thank God for my gifts and for helping me through my dark days. I ask my Angels to guide me as I write especially Archangel Gabriel and I thank them for their messages. I hold the intent those of you who can relate to this one will see the light soon.
It amazes me how life really does reflect back to us what we send out with our thoughts. Last week at work I was so frustrated and tired of being a hygienist. During my workday I had a heart to heart with God and kept asking him to help me get out of this profession and into something more fulfilling. It’s not that it’s a horrible job it’s just I’m burned out and I don’t agree with some of the “sales” part of dentistry. Healthcare in general is no longer about “health” it’s more about money and I don’t agree with that at all. So I feel my heart is not into this job anymore and it’s telling me I need a change. So I asked God to give me strength to step into the healing profession and I asked to be blessed with a successful business. I was still waiting for more signs about starting my business too. I checked my daily email and it said “you are ready Kim and your successful business is ready too.” Love how the answers always come. By the time the weekend got here I was already being tested by the universe because I had some people reach out and I was able to use my counseling ability and help them. I also had flashbacks a few times this week of when I was sitting at a red light listening to Katy Perry’s Firework song and thinking “I’m so lost and have no idea which direction to go.” And then I heard the part about “maybe all the doors are closed so you open one that leads you to the perfect road.” I think that was 3 years ago and at that time I NEVER thought I would be doing what I’m doing today. So TIME changes a lot of things in life and you MUST let time go by so you can find the perfect road.
This one is about Lost to Found. The vibe I’m getting from this week is that people are starting to lose it. People are struggling, going in reverse and very confused. It’s part of the plan because it’s your time to start again, make major decisions, find your faith and move along on your journey. These are the dark days of the shift that come on so strong and knock you down so you rid yourself of what no longer does you any good. These are the days that you might need to spend crying over things you don’t even know what you are crying about. You just feel down, lost and hopeless so you need to cleanse your soul by crying. Your body always will tell you when something is not working like it should. If you are down then it means you have depleted your energy on something that does not need to stay since it does you no good. I’m personally dealing with eye infections since I’m fighting off fear of my psychic ability. Eyes are linked to the third eye chakra so if there are blocks then eye infections can be a result- (meditate on the color blue if you have fear of following your gut, sinus issues, headaches, ears seem blocked or eye issues)(I’ve been doing it for 3 days and my eye are getting better too). Your body always knows so learn to listen to it.
The shift is an intense experience which we will all go through at some point. I’m 7 years into it so I’m just getting to the point where I can work as a healer and help people survive the shift. I’m going to leave names out of this but a friend of mine is really struggling right now. She is just starting the shift and is buried in darkness right now. I was trying to help her find her way out of the dark by suggesting she sleep, cry, write, pray and just feel everything that is coming up. I’ve come a long way but I still have those days when I don’t understand why I feel the way I do. I see 222. I was driving one time and I was thinking “why do I feel like that some days” and I told myself I will just let the days go by because there must be a reason. I looked up at a billboard and it said “embrace the feeling.” I don’t know how eager I am to embrace it but obviously it was a sign that it’s something that is good for my soul. I see 222 again. I guess it’s like when they tell me to “enjoy the ride” not always fun but it’s what’s needed.
I was working on my website this week and when I was writing the “about me” page I was feeling a little insecure since I don’t have any psychology degrees or certifications for healing. All I have is life experience and what my intuition tells me when I’m counseling people. Then I talked to my friend and as she was explaining how she feels I could connect with her because I have been through that exact same thing. As she was talking I was thinking “how would I ever be able to help people if I did not go through this myself?” So now I feel a lot better about starting my business since I’ve learned first hand by life and not a book. You can’t understand the shift unless it happens to you. You can read about what other people have to say about it as they are going through it but nobody could write about it if they never had the experience. It can be so hard to put into words because you really have no idea what is going on in the beginning. You literally think you are nuts and become very numb to life. You want to feel better but you have no idea what to do to feel better so you sit there completely lost and living in your head which leaves you feeling very lonely too. I see 333- they agree.
So what’s happening to you? You are opening up to your spiritual side that has been asleep for a very long time. We are all spiritual beings having a human experience and sometimes our human life takes over our spiritual life too much. Then in order for our true self to be shown we need to undo everything our human self has created in our life. Every negative thought about ourselves, every wrong choice, every fear, every ounce of karma created comes back smacking you in the face and forces you to deal with it. I see 1111- ask the spirit world for what you desire. Will it go away? Nope. Will you survive? Yes. You will survive as long as you find the strength to face it. If you fight it you will not win, you will end up in a deep depression and life will not be very fulfilling. I know because I tried to fight it and then learned to surrender.
So how do you survive it? You learn to listen. You listen to yourself and what your soul needs you to do. If your soul wants you to cry, then cry. If your soul wants you to feel anger, then feel anger. If your soul wants you to feel pain, then feel pain. Does your soul want you to sink into depression? No that’s a sign that you are blocking what is trying to come out. By feeling you are healing. Healing is a painful process and it takes time so you must allow yourself time to heal as well. This is why I stress “me” time. It’s important to separate yourself from people so you can ground yourself and regroup as often as needed. You don’t need to explain yourself to anyone such as giving reasons why you need space but you need to have space. However, as you go through the shift it is important to bring yourself back to the level of those around you as in your friends and family. My husband isn’t going through the shift like me so there are times when I drift away and do my healing and he has no idea how I’m feeling because I don’t always explain to him how I’m feeling. However, I try to keep myself grounded enough so I can connect with him and enjoy the “regular” life too. It helps that he doesn’t question me about my needing space and he supports my “me time” so it makes my life a lot easier. However, I do notice football Sundays have become his “me time” so I guess he has a plan lol. The point is this shift is about YOU and everything needs to be about YOUR healing. Ex My friend called me a few hours later after I suggested she try to write and she said “I tried but I couldn’t but I got a flash of my son and it made me wonder what kind of Mom I am.” She was crying about it so I knew she has some deep rooted issues with this. So I tried to explain to her that’s what your soul wants you to heal first. That’s why it came up and I told her to explore it a little more and see what else comes up. I told her it needs to be about how she can feel better not about how her son can feel better. She needs to go back and relive the times when she made mistakes, she needs to forgive herself since she did not know any better at the time, she needs to find the times when she did the right thing even when her son may not of liked it but it was what was needed, she needs to find her peace and when she does that then she brings healing to the relationship for both of them. I explained to her that most of what she holds onto as in guilt her son most likely does not even think of her that way. He may not have the same memories as her. But she needs to accept herself and see the good in herself so she can feel what others really feel about her. We block ourselves from feeling the truth because we don’t allow ourselves to believe we are worthy of love so we have to go through a shift in order to breakdown our false beliefs and allow love. That’s why it always needs to be about YOU because if you don’t heal you then you don’t heal anything outside of you either.
From my experience with the shift it seems to go in many cycles so there are a lot of ups and downs. At first you feel completely lost and confused then you get a sense that there is something you need to search for but you don’t know what that is yet but you have a desire to search anyway. Then after some time you should start getting some undeniable signs about what you need to do for yourself. As you follow those signs you will begin to understand a little bit about what’s happening to you but don’t expect to know it all. If you ignore those signs then you are doomed, sorry to say but that’s the truth. You can’t waste time anymore because your soul will not let you rest if you don’t stay on the right path. You know when you are not at peace so just listen to yourself and surrender so you can find your way. Then eventually depending on how quickly you surrender you should start to have peace again and learn how much the shift has changed you into a totally different more balanced and confident person. I’m not done yet but I’m completely different from when I started the shift. So from my experience you just need to keep going no matter how hard it gets. You do get breaks but you have to keep going. The results are worth it once you allow the healing to work on you.
So if you feel out of sorts right now then know you are not alone. I will say there are some strong energy shifts going on because I can feel it and I’ve been a little off lately too. It’s just easier for me to deal with now that I understand what to expect. However, you will one day understand too as long as you keep pushing forward. It’s best to allow the feelings to flow no matter how painful because that is how they get released and new ideas come to the surface. It’s when you make decisions about holding onto painful memories or letting them go. You learn to think differently and more positively about your life and future. Things really do have their time so you must learn to stay positive during the waiting period. I see 222. It’s how you keep yourself sane and full of faith. So when the dark days come in keep fighting because they only come to clean your soul. If you don’t have a happy soul then you can’t find the perfect road. When you heal yourself then you open you heart. When your heart is open then you allow love into your soul. When you learn to love yourself then you find opened doors.
Here are 3 little rules I try to live by
1) it’s ok to struggle sometimes
2) it’s ok to be different
3) it’s ok to not know the reasons why but trust there are reasons.
They seem to help me through the dark days so I figured I would share for those of you who are confused by the shift. It gets easier as time goes by so keep fighting.
Acceptance- I feel this one is telling you to accept the changes in your life right now. I’ve learned to expect change and by doing so I have released stress over trying to keep my life in order in all areas. Life is never balanced in every area because one or more always needs work. As you accept the changes that come in then you can stay focused on learning how to change with them.
Hello from Heaven- This can be from your loved ones and your Angels. I feel this one is telling me there is a lot of stress right now in someone’s life and your loved ones and guides want you to know it’s best to give up control over the situation. If you are doing the best you can then that is all that is expected of you. You will survive it but you should learn how to relax a little too. We can’t control everything in our lives but we can help ourselves by finding ways to be at peace no matter what is going on around us. I’m hearing “yoga” so if you feel this is speaking to you then you may want to take some yoga classes and meditate more often too.