I thank God for my gifts and for giving me the opportunity to grow. I ask my Angels to guide me as I write especially Archangel Gabriel and I thank them for their help. I hold the intent all of you will learn love and not fear.
I’m back from my Sedona trip and everyone keeps asking me how it was but I’m having a hard time explaining my trip. I’ve only been home a few days and I’m still processing everything from my week in Sedona. It was life changing for me. I went there telling myself that I want anything and everything that is supposed to happen to me to happen. It all happened and some very unexpected things as well. Each day brought something new into my life and each day brought new lessons. One of the best things I realized from this trip is I got my independence back. When I left for this trip I did not know anyone and I traveled alone. I took 2 planes, rented a car, drove 2 hrs, checked into my hotel alone and spent the first day in Sedona not knowing where I was or anyone around me. While I was waiting for my 1st plane I noticed a family with 2 small children and it hit me hard that I left my family behind. The further I traveled away from my home the more I cried. Once I was settled in my room I called home to talk to my family and when we hung up it hit me that it was only 4pm and I had hours left in my day to focus on I was alone. I have not been alone since I became a Mom 7 years ago so it’s been a while. So I went shopping, went to see the rocks and drove around Sedona. Surprisingly it felt very comfortable exploring Sedona and I’m sure I have lived there in another life.
The next day I went to my class and I got to meet 12 other women who share many parts of my life story. When I signed up for this workshop back in March the instructor told me most of the time you end up with those who are part of your soul group. I get that now because not only did I learn what I needed to about Past Life Regression I also learned what was missing from my own soul. I had 12 pieces of my soul speaking to me each time we met for class, lunch or chat time. I’ve never been to a support group before but for those of you who do belong to one you are very blessed to have that as a form of therapy. Hearing people share your very own struggles, experiences, knowledge and feeling like you are not alone is awesome and it helps you learn to love yourself since you realize there is no need to criticize yourself anymore because you are no different from the next person.
Right before this trip I tried really hard to get myself to a good point within. After this trip I now see what else I needed to clean up within. Right now I spend each day focusing on what I need to hold onto so I don’t lose all that I have gained within. My soul is going through what I call “a cleansing phase”. My emotions go up and down, my thoughts run non stop, I’m tired, I relive a lot of “old stuff” and once it’s complete I come out feeling ready to face anything that comes my way. So it’s a good thing but it so confusing as I’m working through it internally. But from what I have learned from my morning meditations at the rocks, the stories from the group and the energy I felt during the week is there is only once answer for survival of the soul and that is LOVE.
So Yay this one is about LOVE. My readers love when I talk about love so it should be a good one. Where to begin, I will start with how I break everything down to 2 explanations about my feelings, thoughts or actions. They all stem from either LOVE or FEAR. Here is an example from my week, day 1 I focused on fear and I was a mess feeling sad, alone and just confused about how I got there and why I was in Sedona. Day 2 I got to meet awesome people and I instantly fell in love with their stories, personalities, similarities and I felt great which brought me so much peace and happiness. Then Day 3 I was filled with fear AGAIN. Someone from the group shared their story and I strongly felt it was a message for me about my future. I see 777- on the right path so now I have butterflies in my stomach lol. Damn signs lol. So since I spent so much time thinking about it I turned it into fear and started to block what was trying to come out. Which always leaves me feeling very ungrounded and emotional. Then later that day I had a regression which led to me learning what I needed to do so I could overcome these emotions and get myself grounded again. So I learned LOVE was the right path and not fear. I was good the rest of the week after that and my soul continued to learn to love and my gifts and intuition seemed to strengthen too.
Something I find myself wondering about often is “is there anyone in this world who can say 100% they live from a place of love only” Meaning is it even possible to do all the time? My intuition tells me “No” nobody can say they live a life filled with 100% love. Fear is everywhere and we pick it up from others, we are born into this life having it in our souls and for as lot of us we were raised to live in fear by our parents, religion etc. That does not mean you can’t change your life for the better by learning to live from love rather than fear. However, don’t be so hard on yourself if you have a hard time “loving” your life, surroundings, experiences etc. Ex. I have learned over time to open my once closed heart and even though I know love is the only answer it is not so easy to feel or send with everyone and everything in life. But for me when I have those moments of not wanting to send love or feel love I question myself by asking myself “why”? Some of the answers I get are reasonable ones but the only answer I get that actually teaches me is “lesson of compassion.” I mentioned in other blogs that we never know someone’s entire story unless they tell us so their behavior in life will often tell us about what’s going on inside. Here’s a story about my lesson of compassion I learned during my flight home this week. When my plane stopped in Chicago one of the passengers was wheelchair bound and parlysed from the waist down. He sat in the row next to me and we started talking and realized we live within minutes of each other. He asked me where I was traveling from and I told him about Sedona and since he asked I told him about the past life therapy workshop too. He looked at me and laughed and went on to make jokes about past lives. I smiled and thought to myself ” I know most will think it’s a joke but I had the therapy done on myself and I know it’s not.” So I let it go and it didn’t bother me that he made fun of me in front of a lot of people. During the flight I could hear him making jokes and very racist jokes which were probably insulting to many passengers. At this point my “feeling sorry for him being in a wheelchair” was turning into “this guy is an ahole.” I knew deep within it wasn’t right to think but I kept thinking who acts like that and thinks it’s ok to insult others? So I had a chat with myself and I decided to “read” this man’s energy. He has anger, he is very angry about getting hit by a big truck during a bike ride which left him very different from before. He uses his “jerkiness” as a shield so others will think he doesn’t need to be pitied. He is a very sad person that spends a lot of time in his head hoping nobody will figure out his weakness. He doesn’t realize his behavior tells everyone how unhappy he really is inside. So then I did feel sorry for him and I sent love his way. I prayed for him to heal and to cope with his trauma. I don’t need to be his best friend but I did feel for my own soul and his sending love was the answer so he can heal and I could heal as well. If I choose to be nasty then I harm my own soul by missing out on the opportunity to grow. So as always the universe arranges little tests for us and we decide love or fear. I felt at peace and I’m still praying for him so it was the right choice.
Another thought that came to me is “what defines love”? Are we all on the same page with understanding what love is? Again my intuition tells me “no” the world obviously is not on the same page about love. Some define it as the way the movies make it out to be, some define it as a selfless act such as religion teaches about Jesus. Depending on how you define it determines how you give it out. If you think it’s about the magical, Hollywood version then you might be holding back from the world since unless it fits your expectation then you feel you need to keep searching. If you think it’s the “Jesus” version then you might like me be willing to send it to anyone who needs it or is willing to accept it in order for them to flourish in life. My definition of love has changed over the years because I have changed and have a better understanding about life. My original definition was about expectation meaning I had a list of what was expected from someone in order for me to believe it is love. I still have a little list but I now have learned it’s not about expecting it’s about accepting. When we expect we put demands on people and most of the time those people are not capable of fulfilling our expectations. When we accept we are allowing people to be who they are and we give ourselves a chance to decide who we are too. We decide if we will love without expectation and accept others as we want them to accept us as we are. Just like the man on the plane, at first I expected him to behave the way I thought was appropriate in order for him to deserve my kindness and love but when I realized what I was doing I made the decision to accept him as he is and allowed myself to send him love because that is what my heart knows love to be.
Life has a way of forcing us to grow and change at a faster pace than we are comfortable with sometimes. It sends so many people along our path to teach us what we really need to learn. We all have come to learn love and that also means we all need to learn to accept one another for who we are at this moment. There can’t be any judging, criticizing, hating etc for the world to live with only love and not fear. The world has a long way to go but you as an individual have a decision to make. You decide if you want to feed the world love or feed the world fear. Your behavior will show what side you are on. I see 222. Do you choose to accept people for who they are or will you judge, criticize and insult who they are? As always the first person you will need to start with is yourself. I learned a lesson in Sedona because I learned to stop putting so many expectations on myself and to start focusing on accepting instead. Expecting comes from fear since deep in there we fear “what if we’re not good enough, what if we don’t accomplish this/that, the what ifs could go on and on.” I see 333- they agree. Accepting comes from love because it deals with the now and who we are right now and what is going on right now. There is no judging or criticizing because it is what it is and if we accept it then we can focus on growing and learning which leads to sharing ourselves and experiences with others who could benefit from our knowledge and that is a form of love. That is giving a part of yourself to help another which will in time help them grow because they have learned as well. I see 222. So when you can find it in your heart to allow a lesson of compassion, stop yourself from judging, take a minute to pray for someone’s need and accept yourself for who you are right now then you are living a life of love. It’s that simple but a lot of times our egos make it so difficult to see beyond another’s ego. That’s the greatest test of love, learning to see beyond the ego. Take your own “love test” and think about your actions and thoughts in life. Be honest with yourself and figure out if you need to allow more love and eliminate fear. It’s not about mastering the test right now it’s more about learning what needs to change within so you can live from a place of love.
I’m naming this one after the way I sign cards “Love Always”. I’ve signed that way for years but today it has a new definition for me. It means “always” as in who you were, who you are and who you will be does not matter because I accept them all. So once again from my experiences it’s best to Love Always.
Manifest- take a minute to think about this one and really send out positive thoughts about what you wish to bring into your life. It will come when it’s meant to come to you.
Patience- I feel this one is reminding you not to give up on hope and allow the time that is needed for your desires to surface in your life.
The card for the month of July is Perspective- says allow yourself to be different- wow I needed this one and it’s so crazy how the spirit world knows what to send at just the right time too.
I’m going to add a number too
25-As you go through major life changes, expect the best and your optimism will be rewarded.