Under the Moon

I thank God for my gifts and for helping me heal. I ask my Angels especially Archangel Gabriel to guide me as I write and I thank them for their support. I hold the intent all of you will learn ways to release what needs to go.

It’s been 2 months since I posted a blog but I have been so busy I never had a chance to write. I have many messages but I’m not sure if they are all meant to go into this blog or if some are part of another blog. As usual I will just write and see what is said.

Although I have been very busy I still made some time for myself. I took some time to re-evaluate my life so I could decide what needed to go so I could move forward with peace. It’s good to do that every so often because life changes and a lot of the times what was good for you before may not be good for you anymore. Letting go can be a difficult process because it means things change and sometimes we fear change. However, most of the time if not all of the time on the other side of fear is a refreshing new life waiting for us.

So this one is about Release. I hope some of you were able to experience the energy of the full moon this month. It was really powerful and I don’t always get a strong vibe from the moon but this was one that gave off a lot of healing energy. As I sat outside under the moon, I meditated and I could literally feel my fingertips vibrating because the energy was so strong. So if you missed the moon this month then try to remember to take some time during the next full moon to let the energy clear your soul of what needs to go.

I started getting messages about this blog in mid September but during my meditation under the moon it all starting coming together. I see 333- they agree. My meditation was an incredible experience of release. As I sat under the moonlight I admired the clouds and I thanked the universe for all the help I have been given so I can walk my path, I wrote a list of everything I wanted to let go of and I burned it and sent those troubles away and I sat with my eyes closed so I could take in my surroundings such as the sounds of nature. It was one of my best meditations yet because I focused on releasing. A lot of times when I meditate I’m inviting knowledge, healing, peace etc but this time I really wanted to focus on letting go. During this meditation I was given many glimpses of my path this far. I was getting flashes of where I started and then flashes of where I am now. At one point I felt the ground I was sitting on and then looked up at the moon and I really appreciated the way I live my life. I even thought to myself “wow when I first tried meditating I could barely keep my eyes closed or stop my thoughts but now I easily lose myself into the moment and absorb all healing energies of the universe. It’s a true blessing to be able to get yourself that centered. Even though it does not last forever just having 10 minutes is a nice boost for your soul. It takes work to find peace so until you can release you will not relax.

So life is very hectic, people hurt you, you hurt people, you have down days, things don’t workout like you hoped and so on and so on.  I totally understand all of those and all of those happen for a reason.  I’ll start with the “hectic” life- times when life is screaming responsibility such as family, career, house/home chores all those things that make you feel like you are spinning through each day without any breaks.  So you can simplify this situation into two choices- absorb the stress or release the stress.  To absorb it would be to think of those as struggles, unfair circumstances or an excuse to bitch and moan.  To release would be to learn the lesson.  What is life trying to tell you?  Ex.  Last month my husband had some really difficult clients and tough deals going on(he is a real estate agent) and it got the point that he was so overwhelmed and burned out from it that he wanted to quit the business all together(not really but he felt that way in the moment of stress).  At the same time he had some serious family matters surrounding him too which was creating more stress and made dealing with difficult people even harder.  So we were talking one day and I said “look at what life is telling you” I told him your business is driving you crazy because it’s not meant to be your main focus right now.  I also pointed out to him that his  family life needs attention so life is pushing him to give it more time and let the business move to the back for a bit.   I see 888- abundance coming.  So he backed off as much as he was able to from the difficult deals and they all worked out fine and have settled as planned.  So once he released stress he was able to feel better and he learned a lesson about stepping back to observe life(at least until the next round of craziness lol).

So how do you release hurt?  This requires much more work and takes a lot longer but it’s not impossible.  Again this can be simplified into two choices- hold onto it or let it go.  To hold onto it would be allowing it to cause repeated pain and suffering, think many unnecessary thoughts and block any chance of healing.  To let go would be an opportunity of forgiveness of self and/or others, a chance to breathe without pain and a huge step with growth along the spiritual path.  I’ve said before that forgiveness does not mean what you or somebody has done was right but it’s more about not letting it rob you of peace.  We have all done things and had things done to us that were wrong but we also have lessons to be learned from those experiences.  For the things we have done we are meant to look back and learn why we did those and who we were when we did those things.  From that we can decide what we should or have changed about ourselves for the better.  For the things that have been done to us we have a chance to learn why someone did those to us.  Did we need a taste of our own behavior or did we need to learn we deserve better?  No matter which one you needed to learn it usually is learned best when we are hurt. It sucks at the time but once you have the strength to evaluate what really happened you will see the lessons learned and you most likely will be grateful for the experience or kicking yourself in the ass for your actions lol.

So what about the down days when things are just not going your way or you feel blah?  Something important to understand is this is completely normal to feel.  I used to struggle on my down days because I was always searching for what was wrong with me rather than accepting I was just a normal human being having a bad day.  Down days are actually times of release too. They are meant to help you cleanse your mind of what creates the pain you hold onto.  When we experience a “let down” as in not getting something we hoped for or a change in plans naturally we feel down at first.  However, those let downs happen to prepare us for something better.  It’s always the way.  The universe can be tricky at times but it is all-knowing and it will place anything that is meant to be on our path at the exact moment it’s meant to show up.  As I have explained before, we need to clear out the old to make room for the new which happens by our souls forcing us to feel our own thoughts that we constantly tell ourselves.  Ex.  If one always thinks from a place of low self-esteem or thinks they are destined to be doomed then those down days will come.  They come because the mind has manifested them into reality.  Therefore it is an opportunity to change how one thinks.  If one does not like how they feel then they will try to change it unless they choose to continue to live the same way. Just like one does not learn until one has felt how it feels on the other end.  You will not understand how much you feed your mind until you actually feel the damage you have created. The universe demands change before it delivers but free will has the power to stop the flow of the universe sometimes.  I don’t believe for everything but definitely for some things.  So simplify it again into two choices, accept the opportunity for change or miss the opportunity and stay stuck in the down days which eventually turn into a lifetime.  Accepting is releasing it opens up the mind to understanding what’s going on and it desires to learn ways to cope so hope can be restored.  Missing the opportunity is holding onto pain, it closes the door to any guidance from the higher powers, fills the mind with limited thinking such as seeing things as how they are right then rather than how they could be in the future, it prevents the energy from flowing freely within your soul and weighs you down to the point of losing desire for any form of healthy change.  And one will stay stuck in the bubble of doom which stunts any spiritual growth from happening.  Choose wisely with this one because a bad day can be over and done with by having a good laugh, cry and sleep.  Everyday brings a new day and every day is another opportunity for healthy change.  If you feed your mind the “things will never change” thoughts then your mind will make you feel those thoughts until you decide to change.  To feel that each day would actually be destined to be doomed so ask yourself if that is what you really want.

It’s good to simplify life as much as possible.  Too many choices creates confusion and its hard to make decisions that way too.  This world likes to complicate everything and there are always so many choices being thrown at us which usually makes us question it all to the point we become confused and unsure which way to turn.  Politics, investments, raising children, health, schools etc it gets to be so overwhelming that until we narrow down and let go of what does not fit who we are we can’t come to a final decision.  It’s the same for your soul, until you narrow everything down and find what works for you it’s hard to move forward.  So narrow it down, release what wants to leave you, let it go and move the fears out-of-the-way so you can find the new refreshing life on the other side.  For me I have narrowed it all down to the moon.  I allow it to heal my soul and I use it’s energy to give me the strength to go through the process.  It shows me how small I am in this big world but it reminds me that even though I’m a small piece of the world I still have the power to change my personal space anytime  I choose.  At any moment I have the power to release all that does not serve me well.  Just like every day starts with a chance to start over, every night is a chance to end what holds you back.

I often see the saying “no matter where you are,you will always be looking at the same moon as I am”  This could have a few meanings but I like to think it tells us no matter what is going on in your life you are still part of this world which means we are all in this life trying to survive the best we can.  It seems a lot of people hold things in because they fear they are different and they stress about keeping everything under control so nobody will see their troubles.  This is why it’s so important to release because when you stuff it in you are actually creating a lot of internal damage.  I see 333- they agree.  Realizing your life is the same as the next person when it comes to dealing with the “hectic” life, the hurts or the down days helps you learn to let go since there is no reason to hide it inside.  Trust me when I tell you there is not one person here that has every area of their life completely balanced.  That’s not how life works since we always need to be working on our own growth.  So you are not alone in this world. I see 222.  We all have the moon to remind us that we are no different from one another and when life gets overwhelming and you need some release always know you have a chance every night to let it all go under the moon.


Steady Progress-  a sign to keep going even when you can’t see the light at the end just trust in the path and believe good things will come from your efforts.

Giving and Receiving-  so many times I preach about the importance of balancing your giving and receiving-  so important to keep the flow balanced- I see 333- they agree.  If you give too much and can’t allow yourself to receive in return then you will drain your energy and block the flow of abundance too so always allow the universe to return to you what you deserve.  If you take too much but don’t return the giving then you will be blocking the universe from returning blessings because you will most likely notice the universe will be taking from you rather than sending opportunities or blessings.

The card for Oct from Doreen Virtue is New Beginnings-  Still have a few days left to start something new.

FYI – next full moon is on Nov 6th-  Hope you enjoy it!

Always Believe…

For The Curious

I thank God for my gifts and for helping me help others. I ask my Angels to help me deliver this message so it will be easily understood. I hold the intent those of you who get the nudge will act on it.

I keep getting the nudge about writing this one so I’m going to listen. Those of you who need it will know so hopefully you will listen.

This one is about What I Do. Some of you know all about me, some of you have recently met me, some know me but don’t know the new me and some have never met me. So what’s my deal? I have been given many gifts and knowledge this time around with life. As some of you already know I was not always aware of those gifts or knowledge but I have opened the door to them and have learned what I’m meant to do with all of it. At this point I have about 8 years of “education” that I’m now able to use to help others. It’s not 8 years of college or school and now I have a diploma but it was 8 years of wtf is going on and I was driven to different areas of spirituality so I could find the answers. So I learned by having the experience and then finding the reason so I could recover and learn, which would help me teach others in the future.

What seems to be happening right now in my life is the roads are beginning to meet. Each area I studied about spirituality is now coming together as one and my gifts and knowledge are being used as they were meant to be used. I’m a physical healer, emotional healer and a psychic/medium(but not a big fan of connecting with deceased people so I stick to animal spirits). I can refer you to a friend if you are seeking a medium for the deceased. Anyway, I started doing past life regressions but mine have a little twist to them so I’m trying to rename it to something other than past life therapy. I have so many people asking me what it’s about so I figured writing a full explanation would be the best answer. So here is what I do and what goes on during a session with me.

First there is an “interview” just to make sure this is something the client should be doing. Ex if someone is being treated for any mental illness I will not have a session with them. This is not medical treatment it is alternative healing so those who are being medicated are best to stay with their Dr. If someone has minor anxiety, that’s a little different and they would probably do really well with a session so I would be willing to have one with them.

Next I do a “fruit test” this is a quick exercise so we can see which of the senses are the strongest. It also gives the client a chance to understand how they will get info during the journey. I explain it more with a session.

Then I do a chakra clearing on the client. This has been working really well for people and it helps remove any blocks they may have so the energy can flow more freely through their body. Many clients have felt relief from physical pain after this clearing.

Next step is hypnosis- I personally was afraid of hypnosis and if someone said they were going to hypnotize me I would have refused but my healer did not tell me that’s what was going on and I guess I was hypnotized without knowing. Here’s how it works with a session – When I hypnotize the client they are still very much aware of what’s going on, I can’t no matter how much I would try (not that I would) make them do anything they are not willing to do. It is the same feeling of when you are watching tv and you zone out to the noises around you but if the phone rings you are aware. There is no sneaky mind game attack on you it’s simply done to help your mind relax so you can connect with your subconscious. I always give my client a chance to ask as many questions as necessary too before I start the hypnosis. So far all of my clients are very open to being hypnotized and enjoy the deep relaxation during the journey too.

Once the client reaches the point of deep relaxation the journey begins. Everyone’s journey is different. You set an intention, ask to be given only what you can handle (meaning if you are not ready to be shown a very traumatic lifetime then you won’t). As the client goes on this journey they are telling me everything they see, feel, hear, smell and any detail they want to share. I’m writing notes as they are talking but at the same time I may be getting messages from their guides as well so I keep those notes too. This is when I use my psychic ability . So as the journey goes on the message comes clear and then I do different things to help the client remove any fears from the life that may have carried over into this current life.  I guide them through a forgiveness process if they feel ready, I guide them through the steps needed to find closure with anything that the past life shows that may be affecting the current life. I also have the client connect with their inner child so they can understand what they need to bring in peace and healing.  This also seems to be showing when there may be blocks from a painful childhood in the current life.  It helps get the strength to face those blocks so healing can begin.   I also have the client find what is needed in their adult self so they can have inner peace. So much goes on during the journey that it amazes me with each client how much healing comes from one session. I always say you really need to have the experience for yourself to understand how it works but for each person so far it has really worked. You might meet guides, or connect with your deceased loved ones. They have brought messages to some clients and some just soaked up the joyful feeling they felt while they were with guides or loved ones on the journey( I may get some messages from the guides and deceased too). The best part about the journey is it’s yours. I’m not telling you what I see or feel this is all you seeing what goes on in your subconscious and what needs to heal. I might give the messages I received during your session but it still is about what you take from it. Once the journey is done we discuss the notes and see how it connects with your current life. Every single client has had the same response “wow that’s make so much sense”. It is so different from going to a “talk therapist” because this info comes from within. I might add to it with what the guides give me only because it’s a message they don’t want you to miss. However, when you are able to get to the root of an issue by seeing it for yourself you are able to heal it so much quicker because you understand it for yourself rather than someone telling you why things are they way they are in your life. After we are done discussing the notes I have each client choose a certain number of cards(whatever the spirits wish) from each of my Angel card decks and I interpret the cards. Everytime the cards have fit the message from the journey too.

So that’s a simplified explanation of what I do. I make sure every client is informed so they are comfortable with going on the journey and at the end it is important for me to know they were impressed by the experience. Although I will be getting paid for this work I still think of it as my service so I don’t want to take money from people unless I know they get healing and it works.  That’s why I offered free sessions for 3 months so I could make sure I was truly helping people before I charged a fee.  I only have a few “free” sessions left for September(contact me asap if you want a free one) and I will begin charging $175 per session(up to 3 hours) in Oct.  A session includes the chakra clearing, past life regression, angel card reading and anything my psychic side needs to pass on to you.  I tried to keep it affordable because I want people to heal.  When I had this therapy done on myself my sessions were 4 hours and $480 so $175 might seem like a lot but with this therapy and the going rate it’s on the lower end.  Plus I add in the other services.  A session lasts about 2.5 – 3 hours.  I ask clients to dress comfortable because they are laying down for most of the time.  I use music to help the client stay relaxed during the entire journey and I also use healing crystals for those who have an interest.  It’s pretty much a mind, body and spirit makeover which leaves you feeling really good once it’s complete.  So hopefully this answers a lot of questions for people and I’m always available to answer more if you contact me written4life@verizon.net or those who are connected to me on fb can message me on there too.  If you would rather talk over the phone then please message me first and I will give you my number or call you.  The sessions do need to be in person so if you are local Bucks county/Montgomery County PA or close to those it would be a short distance by car. 

I have a strong feeling there are some who have been getting the nudge but might be a little unsure still.  If this is you please contact me if you have more questions.  If it’s you and you don’t feel ready yet then listen to that feeling and when it’s the right time you will know and you can contact me.  This therapy has a way of finding you.  Meaning if your soul is meant to have this healing done you will get that nudge telling you “you gotta do it”.  You may not understand why but it’s the nudge that makes you do it.  That’s how it happened for me and each client has felt the same way too.  The soul always knows what we need to move along on our spiritual journey.  Hopefully I will be seeing you soon.  But only when you are fully ready.  No pressure:)

Always Believe…

Crazy Good

I thank God for my gifts and for blessing me with my new career. I ask my Angels to guide me as I write especially Archangel Gabriel and I thank them for their support. I hold the intent all of you will try to send out what you wish to return.

I’ve been doing a lot of regressions lately and it’s crazy how natural it feels for me. That’s always a good sign you are on the right path with finding your purpose. When everything just seems to fall into place and the universe brings all that you need. I will always keep my client’s experiences confidential so I can’t give details but I will say each one has been so interesting and so healing for the client. That makes me feel good about the work I’m doing and it makes me realize when you are using your passion it does not feel like “work” it just feels right. But as always I struggled before I took the leap into my new career. Once I realized I was blocking what was waiting to come my way I learned to raise my vibration to match my desires and not my fears. And the universe delivered instantly.

So this one is about Raising Your Vibration. Some of you may be wondering what the hell that means so I will give a quick explanation. We are all energy and we each vibrate at different levels which explains why we click with some and not others. It also explains why our situations in life are different from others because we may not be on the same level of soul growth. The more you grow spiritually the higher your vibration. You can’t fake it because energy does not lie. So if someone is in a “higher position” in the material world but lacks the spiritual growth it is going to show by their behavior. They might use their power in a wrong way rather than using it to help humanity as a whole. Ex some Doctors, politicians, police officers, priests etc. So many times we find out those people are guilty of doing horrible things to innocent people. So it’s not about your “ranking” in the material world. It’s about how awakened is your soul. I see 1111. The more you awaken the higher your vibration will be.

Everything and everyone is energy as well. So you will always attract those people and things who are vibrating on your level too. Sometimes we may choose to stay in the lower level since we like to play it safe and avoid stepping into something new. BTW, when I say “lower” it’s not that it is always bad it means we are always growing so we are always meant to move on but sometimes we fight that and choose to stay in a comfort zone. When things are too comfortable we tend to get bored, lazy and stuck. Learning requires leaps and risks and lots of faith but sometimes that can be very scary to take on so we play it safe and stay where we are rather than move ahead. This is my struggle right now. Today is 8/5 and I have no idea when this will be published but for about a month I have been fighting through self doubt as I take the leap into my new career.

Here’s my story- On one hand I have a steady paying job that I have 13 years experience as a Dental Hygienist and a total of 19 yrs in the dental field. I know my job and I do it well so it’s comfortable for me to do this work. Not really it’s body breaking at times lol but comfort as in I have no fears or doubts. On the other hand I have my certification with past life therapy which I only have 1 month experience and I’m still finding my style. This has the potential to be a steady paying job and a fulfilling career too but it’s still very new to me so there are a lot of “what ifs” running through my head. I see 333- they agree. So I have a decision to make again and depending on what I choose will determine where I go. Do I stay in my comfort zone or do I follow my gut? I know exactly what I should and need to do but the mind has a great power over your heart sometimes. It can be very convincing when we are afraid to make a major move in life. But your heart always knows and even when my mind is so filled with reasons why my leaps and risks are not going to go well I take them anyway because if I know what my heart wants then I know it’s right. I see 777- on the right path. Some people think that’s crazy but those are the same people who are stuck living a life they don’t want to be living. They settled for “I’ll do this because this makes the most sense.” Not saying be irresponsible but do try to step out of your comfort zone sometimes especially when you just know it’s time.

So how do I stop my mind from feeding me these thoughts? As always I ask myself questions. First I think “seriously must I do this to myself over and over again” lol. I can be a perfectionist in some ways and when it comes to myself it can be a problem at times. This is going to take me a while to change but I do try to change. Anyway, I had a major shift in my vibration since my Sedona trip. I almost felt like who I was when I left for Sedona is not the same person who came back from Sedona. Some of you may understand the feeling of waking up as a new person and not really knowing what’s going on but that’s what it felt like for me over these last few weeks since I’ve been home.

I do these regressions on people and it feels like I’ve been doing them for 30 years. It’s so natural that sometimes I’m so amazed how the universe paved the road for me to find my purpose. Who goes to a party with a friend, eats funky raw food, lies on a couch and walks with a lion only to discover he showed me an artificial Christmas tree from my childhood and it led to a major break through for my inner healing which lead to more sessions for healing and now I’m on the other end guiding others through their sessions? No part of my last sentence makes any logical sense. But in my heart it made sense. I knew I had to take a risk, I knew I could not try to figure it all out because I’m not meant to know the whole story yet, I knew it was right for me and I went for it. So that’s what I tell myself so I can relax my mind and let my heart lead the way. I hold onto the words “I just know it’s right” and I let God handle the rest. My vibration is higher now therefore my old way of thinking will not work at this level. I will need to raise my thoughts and ways to match my vibration so I can feel my best. If I lower my thoughts then I lower my vibration and since I don’t belong at that level I will not enjoy that level. I see 222. I will feel pressured to change because my soul will not settle for less than where I should be. Once you wake up then your soul will never let you go back to sleep. It will force you to keep growing spiritually so you can vibrate at the highest level possible.

So when I realized my self doubt was pulling me down I focused on raising my thoughts to what I desired rather than feared. INSTANTLY the universe delivered me clients and my book was filled. That’s how I know this isn’t about being an “employee” this is about serving my purpose as a healer. This is what God is asking me to do and if I listen then all I need to do is follow his lead. When you make the connection between your human self and spiritual self then your vibration soars and you are most likely being called to do something that will help others grow spiritually too. In order to do spiritual work you need to be healed and vibrating at the high level. I learned that this week because when I was stressing about the how, who, where what will be I blocked what was meant to be because I was not energetically ready to do the work since I had to clean some things up within myself. It works differently with spiritual work because God nudges the souls in the direction they need to go and when they listen they show up. I simply have to make myself available and listen to my intuition so I can guide them through their session. No stress just faith in God’s timing.

I know a lot of you are not starting a new spiritual career but raising your vibration works the same with anything in life. Whenever you find yourself feeling “stuck” take a minute to observe where you are in life. What needs to change? Career, relationship, attitude, way of life, diet etc. Start with only one area and you will see how the other areas begin to change too. Ex if you work on your attitude then you start to enjoy things a lot more which will lead to taking better care of yourself physically and your relationships will begin to be a lot healthier too. Sometimes this leads to finding a new path in life such as a new career. Just go with the flow but start with your mind. Start practicing calming your mind so you can think better thoughts that will match your desires rather than your fears. Your mind can be amazing for imagination but it can also be a major block with spiritual growth. Just be aware of that and when you start to feel blah fight it off by reprogramming your mind to think thoughts that match the vibration of your desires. As you think about those desires you will raise your energy to that level too. That’s why it’s good to dream or imagine because you are creating at the same time. Our thoughts are always creating our reality so if you want happy you will need to think happy.

I was given a sign once and it was a hot air balloon they symbolize “rising above fear”. I also read something on my Mom’s refrigerator this week. It was the word FEAR broken down to “Face Everything And Recover”. I like that one because it simplifies FEAR into nothing more than a choice. A choice to let fear hold you in place and rob you of a satisfying life or a choice to face it and recover so you can move on. Your mind may be filled with so much fear but your heart holds everything you desire. It just knows it’s right, it vibrates at such a high level and it pulls you in the right direction. However, it’s up to you if you choose to follow. For me I like to go where people are afraid to go. I like to do things that are out of the norm. My heart won’t settle for average it wants “this doesn’t make any sense but it’s crazy good for you.” It keeps life interesting and it helps me to keep growing. Life is where ever you want to be and if want to stay in your comfort zone and get bored then that’s a choice but if you want to soar up the spiritual ladder and explore what life really has to offer then you will be amazed. People may think you’re crazy, things won’t always make sense but when your heart “just knows” and you listen life will be crazy good.


The cards this time are telling me someone is very close to moving in the wrong direction mentally. I’ll break the cards down but the whole message is saying spend some time outdoors so you can clear your energy which will help you look at the positive side of your situation right now. Everything has a positive so find the lessons because that may be just what you needed even though it’s a struggle. I also feel they are telling you to pay attention to your dreams because messages will be coming if they have not already started.

Outdoors- get outside for clearing

Clear your space- clean up your home, mind or physical body by doing something good for yourself or your space.

Look through the situation- things are not always as bad as they seem sometimes its just a matter of changing your perspective.

Dreams- pay attention because they bring messages.

Always Believe…

Love Always

I thank God for my gifts and for giving me the opportunity to grow. I ask my Angels to guide me as I write especially Archangel Gabriel and I thank them for their help. I hold the intent all of you will learn love and not fear.

I’m back from my Sedona trip and everyone keeps asking me how it was but I’m having a hard time explaining my trip. I’ve only been home a few days and I’m still processing everything from my week in Sedona. It was life changing for me. I went there telling myself that I want anything and everything that is supposed to happen to me to happen. It all happened and some very unexpected things as well. Each day brought something new into my life and each day brought new lessons. One of the best things I realized from this trip is I got my independence back. When I left for this trip I did not know anyone and I traveled alone. I took 2 planes, rented a car, drove 2 hrs, checked into my hotel alone and spent the first day in Sedona not knowing where I was or anyone around me. While I was waiting for my 1st plane I noticed a family with 2 small children and it hit me hard that I left my family behind. The further I traveled away from my home the more I cried. Once I was settled in my room I called home to talk to my family and when we hung up it hit me that it was only 4pm and I had hours left in my day to focus on I was alone. I have not been alone since I became a Mom 7 years ago so it’s been a while. So I went shopping, went to see the rocks and drove around Sedona. Surprisingly it felt very comfortable exploring Sedona and I’m sure I have lived there in another life.

The next day I went to my class and I got to meet 12 other women who share many parts of my life story. When I signed up for this workshop back in March the instructor told me most of the time you end up with those who are part of your soul group. I get that now because not only did I learn what I needed to about Past Life Regression I also learned what was missing from my own soul. I had 12 pieces of my soul speaking to me each time we met for class, lunch or chat time. I’ve never been to a support group before but for those of you who do belong to one you are very blessed to have that as a form of therapy. Hearing people share your very own struggles, experiences, knowledge and feeling like you are not alone is awesome and it helps you learn to love yourself since you realize there is no need to criticize yourself anymore because you are no different from the next person.

Right before this trip I tried really hard to get myself to a good point within. After this trip I now see what else I needed to clean up within. Right now I spend each day focusing on what I need to hold onto so I don’t lose all that I have gained within. My soul is going through what I call “a cleansing phase”. My emotions go up and down, my thoughts run non stop, I’m tired, I relive a lot of “old stuff” and once it’s complete I come out feeling ready to face anything that comes my way. So it’s a good thing but it so confusing as I’m working through it internally. But from what I have learned from my morning meditations at the rocks, the stories from the group and the energy I felt during the week is there is only once answer for survival of the soul and that is LOVE.

So Yay this one is about LOVE. My readers love when I talk about love so it should be a good one. Where to begin, I will start with how I break everything down to 2 explanations about my feelings, thoughts or actions. They all stem from either LOVE or FEAR. Here is an example from my week, day 1 I focused on fear and I was a mess feeling sad, alone and just confused about how I got there and why I was in Sedona. Day 2 I got to meet awesome people and I instantly fell in love with their stories, personalities, similarities and I felt great which brought me so much peace and happiness. Then Day 3 I was filled with fear AGAIN. Someone from the group shared their story and I strongly felt it was a message for me about my future. I see 777- on the right path so now I have butterflies in my stomach lol. Damn signs lol. So since I spent so much time thinking about it I turned it into fear and started to block what was trying to come out. Which always leaves me feeling very ungrounded and emotional. Then later that day I had a regression which led to me learning what I needed to do so I could overcome these emotions and get myself grounded again. So I learned LOVE was the right path and not fear. I was good the rest of the week after that and my soul continued to learn to love and my gifts and intuition seemed to strengthen too.

Something I find myself wondering about often is “is there anyone in this world who can say 100% they live from a place of love only” Meaning is it even possible to do all the time? My intuition tells me “No” nobody can say they live a life filled with 100% love. Fear is everywhere and we pick it up from others, we are born into this life having it in our souls and for as lot of us we were raised to live in fear by our parents, religion etc. That does not mean you can’t change your life for the better by learning to live from love rather than fear. However, don’t be so hard on yourself if you have a hard time “loving” your life, surroundings, experiences etc. Ex. I have learned over time to open my once closed heart and even though I know love is the only answer it is not so easy to feel or send with everyone and everything in life. But for me when I have those moments of not wanting to send love or feel love I question myself by asking myself “why”? Some of the answers I get are reasonable ones but the only answer I get that actually teaches me is “lesson of compassion.” I mentioned in other blogs that we never know someone’s entire story unless they tell us so their behavior in life will often tell us about what’s going on inside. Here’s a story about my lesson of compassion I learned during my flight home this week. When my plane stopped in Chicago one of the passengers was wheelchair bound and parlysed from the waist down. He sat in the row next to me and we started talking and realized we live within minutes of each other. He asked me where I was traveling from and I told him about Sedona and since he asked I told him about the past life therapy workshop too. He looked at me and laughed and went on to make jokes about past lives. I smiled and thought to myself ” I know most will think it’s a joke but I had the therapy done on myself and I know it’s not.” So I let it go and it didn’t bother me that he made fun of me in front of a lot of people. During the flight I could hear him making jokes and very racist jokes which were probably insulting to many passengers. At this point my “feeling sorry for him being in a wheelchair” was turning into “this guy is an ahole.” I knew deep within it wasn’t right to think but I kept thinking who acts like that and thinks it’s ok to insult others? So I had a chat with myself and I decided to “read” this man’s energy. He has anger, he is very angry about getting hit by a big truck during a bike ride which left him very different from before. He uses his “jerkiness” as a shield so others will think he doesn’t need to be pitied. He is a very sad person that spends a lot of time in his head hoping nobody will figure out his weakness. He doesn’t realize his behavior tells everyone how unhappy he really is inside. So then I did feel sorry for him and I sent love his way. I prayed for him to heal and to cope with his trauma. I don’t need to be his best friend but I did feel for my own soul and his sending love was the answer so he can heal and I could heal as well. If I choose to be nasty then I harm my own soul by missing out on the opportunity to grow. So as always the universe arranges little tests for us and we decide love or fear. I felt at peace and I’m still praying for him so it was the right choice.

Another thought that came to me is “what defines love”? Are we all on the same page with understanding what love is? Again my intuition tells me “no” the world obviously is not on the same page about love. Some define it as the way the movies make it out to be, some define it as a selfless act such as religion teaches about Jesus. Depending on how you define it determines how you give it out. If you think it’s about the magical, Hollywood version then you might be holding back from the world since unless it fits your expectation then you feel you need to keep searching. If you think it’s the “Jesus” version then you might like me be willing to send it to anyone who needs it or is willing to accept it in order for them to flourish in life. My definition of love has changed over the years because I have changed and have a better understanding about life. My original definition was about expectation meaning I had a list of what was expected from someone in order for me to believe it is love. I still have a little list but I now have learned it’s not about expecting it’s about accepting. When we expect we put demands on people and most of the time those people are not capable of fulfilling our expectations. When we accept we are allowing people to be who they are and we give ourselves a chance to decide who we are too. We decide if we will love without expectation and accept others as we want them to accept us as we are. Just like the man on the plane, at first I expected him to behave the way I thought was appropriate in order for him to deserve my kindness and love but when I realized what I was doing I made the decision to accept him as he is and allowed myself to send him love because that is what my heart knows love to be.

Life has a way of forcing us to grow and change at a faster pace than we are comfortable with sometimes. It sends so many people along our path to teach us what we really need to learn. We all have come to learn love and that also means we all need to learn to accept one another for who we are at this moment. There can’t be any judging, criticizing, hating etc for the world to live with only love and not fear. The world has a long way to go but you as an individual have a decision to make. You decide if you want to feed the world love or feed the world fear. Your behavior will show what side you are on. I see 222. Do you choose to accept people for who they are or will you judge, criticize and insult who they are? As always the first person you will need to start with is yourself. I learned a lesson in Sedona because I learned to stop putting so many expectations on myself and to start focusing on accepting instead. Expecting comes from fear since deep in there we fear “what if we’re not good enough, what if we don’t accomplish this/that, the what ifs could go on and on.” I see 333- they agree. Accepting comes from love because it deals with the now and who we are right now and what is going on right now. There is no judging or criticizing because it is what it is and if we accept it then we can focus on growing and learning which leads to sharing ourselves and experiences with others who could benefit from our knowledge and that is a form of love. That is giving a part of yourself to help another which will in time help them grow because they have learned as well. I see 222. So when you can find it in your heart to allow a lesson of compassion, stop yourself from judging, take a minute to pray for someone’s need and accept yourself for who you are right now then you are living a life of love. It’s that simple but a lot of times our egos make it so difficult to see beyond another’s ego. That’s the greatest test of love, learning to see beyond the ego. Take your own “love test” and think about your actions and thoughts in life. Be honest with yourself and figure out if you need to allow more love and eliminate fear. It’s not about mastering the test right now it’s more about learning what needs to change within so you can live from a place of love.

I’m naming this one after the way I sign cards “Love Always”. I’ve signed that way for years but today it has a new definition for me. It means “always” as in who you were, who you are and who you will be does not matter because I accept them all. So once again from my experiences it’s best to Love Always.


Manifest- take a minute to think about this one and really send out positive thoughts about what you wish to bring into your life. It will come when it’s meant to come to you.

Patience- I feel this one is reminding you not to give up on hope and allow the time that is needed for your desires to surface in your life.

The card for the month of July is Perspective- says allow yourself to be different- wow I needed this one and it’s so crazy how the spirit world knows what to send at just the right time too.

I’m going to add a number too

25-As you go through major life changes, expect the best and your optimism will be rewarded.

Always Believe…

Full Circle

I thank God for my gifts and for helping me through the dark. I ask my Angels to guide me as I write especially Archangel Gabriel and I thank them for their support. I hold the intent all of you will stay true to yourself.

I had another Birthday and for the last 2 years I have been making a Birthday promise to myself. Last year I wanted to focus on being comfortable in my own skin which still needs a little work but this year I chose to stay focused on giving up control and allowing my soul to grow.

There are so many things happening in my life right now that I’m in one of those up and down phases again. These are the times when I have to try really hard not to lose myself and everything I have gained spiritually over the last 8 years. I’ve decided to not give so many details about my personal life in the blogs so I will just say I have been fighting off a lot of negativity lately. The first one I turn to is God and I pray morning and night and a lot of times throughout the day too. I also turn to the Blessed Mother whenever I struggle with keeping my heart open. She always sends signs and her healings always work too. She sends me roses and ladybugs whenever I need to know she is around. The cake my family got me this year had a ladybug on it too so I’m sure she will be helping throughout the year as well.

This one is about Understanding Yourself. This is another one that is making me laugh because I’m thinking Good Lord is that even possible lol? Some days I know exactly who I am and other days I wonder wtf is wrong with me. I see 333- they agree. However, the days I question myself are the days I have absorbed too much of the negative energy that is surrounding me and I just need a little bit of time alone so I can regroup. Once you clear it you then are able to look back and see your thoughts were not really true who you are thoughts. They were just ego minded ones that had a little too much control over you. It happens and it’s ok but just work them out so they don’t cause too much damage.

I’m starting to prepare for my trip to Sedona and I’ve been working on keeping my thoughts positive and myself confident. I sit outside a lot at night and I use that time to clear my energy and listen to the guidance I receive. I take some time to sort out my thoughts and I focus on what I want to bring into my life. Lately it’s been about holding positive thoughts about what will be after I’m trained as a past life therapist. One night I sat there thinking I will stay open to what’s to come and just follow my nudges. At that moment I saw the first lightening bug of the season. I knew it had a message and sure enough they symbolize ” your attitude about yourself has a lot to do with your success.” It’s always about the timing with signs and the feeling you get which tells you there is a message. So I knew I need to stay confident and open to learning what I need to so I can be successful. It’s been a few weeks since that night and a few times the lightening bug has showed up at just the right time. Aydin also randomly said the # 917 just as I was thinking about the path I’m going to step onto and it means “your positive attitude is creating a successful outcome as you walk the path that follows your purpose.” Again it’s those nudges and reminders that tell you to keep following a path or tell you it’s time to change your path.

What I’m learning about myself right now is I have become MYSELF. That means I have made the decision to follow what is best for me and I have learned how to accept myself without needing others to accept me. There are plenty of people who don’t understand me and what I do, say or dream. There are many who admire what I do, many who have interest in what I do and many who learn from what I do but the difference is I don’t need them to in order for me to feel comfortable with who I am and have become. If you have been following these blogs from day one then you know that’s not who I was when I first started writing. Proof times heals you and the more you work at it the better you feel within.

I’ve also learned the more confident you are the more people are attracted to you. As in the more they will listen to what you have to say. A big indicator with understanding how confident you are is by paying attention to how you speak to people. Meaning if you speak without getting defensive then it shows you believe in yourself and you are speaking your truth. If you speak with an aggressive tone or if you push to hard to get people to see things your way it shows that you are trying too hard because you need their approval and you are being aggressive because you are putting your guard up in case the don’t agree with you. That’s a tough one to face but it’s the truth. I see 222. I used to do that without realizing it because whenever I would pass a message on I would be sick to my stomach until someone validated the message for me. Or whenever I would speak my spiritual talk I would read their expressions or reaction and if it was not what I was hoping for it made me feel horrible. I see 999- work your purpose. I don’t do that anymore and people seem to listen to me as though I know what I’m talking about. People from all types of religions seem to be impressed by what I say to them and sometimes it pushes them to have more faith in their own life or struggles. My purpose is to share what I know and now that I understand who I am it has helped me to go further along the journey I intended for this life. It took me a while to get to this point but little by little I found out who I am which makes a lot of sense now and I’m able to understand my entire life including what will be.

So you figure yourself out by observing what you say and do. You question everything about yourself so you find the reasons why you say and do those things. You HAVE to be honest with yourself if you want to heal yourself. You have flaws so you will need to learn to face them and accept them so you can change them. I just experienced a huge lesson with facing myself. I recently learned why a certain person irritated me so much and when I discovered the reason was because this person reminded me of who I was at her age I understood her more and at the same time I understood why I was so tough on her. I was given a glimpse of my own weaknesses I once had and instead of being understanding I got annoyed since it was hard to face that part of me again. She is in the process of learning a lot of the things I needed to learn but since I’m older I’m ahead of her and that was something I did not see at first. The interesting part of it all is I actually treated her the way others wrongfully treated me back then. I pitied the wrong party and viewed her as the problem maker. When really her inner frustrations were the reasons behind a lot of her behavior. She is misunderstood for her actions and I can relate to that in a lot of ways. So I ended up doing what my heart told me to do and when I changed my opinion doors opened for a healthy relationship. The same goes for myself once I changed my opinion of myself doors opened and I’m living a much healthier life internally which branches out externally.

So as always life sends us people and experiences so we learn more about ourselves. It’s up to you if you choose to learn from those people and experiences. It’s tough to face it sometimes but once you do you are able to see your weaknesses and turn them into strengths. I say all the time that it takes a strong person to admit they are wrong or in need of some positive changes. Nobody is perfect so we all need to change something about ourselves. It’s just the matter of making the decision you want to understand yourself so you can change what needs changing. I’ve grown a lot spiritually over the years but I still find things that I need to change so really it’s a lifelong process. However, the more you try then the more you understand and the easier it is to forgive yourself for your weak moments and find gratitude towards others for teaching you a lesson. Sometimes its not so obvious but we are all here to teach each other so again it’s up to you if you want the lesson to be learned. I always choose to learn and it always releases a lot of frustration, hurt or any other negative energy I feel inside.

The lives we live are based on the energy we send out. When we choose anger, stress, no faith then we draw in people and experiences that are meant to help us learn those thoughts and feelings are not working in our favor. When we choose to see the lessons, find forgiveness, hold onto hope during the dark times we draw in people and experiences to support our growth. There are always blessings in disguise present and those are the times and people who challenge us. When you learn to deal with those challenges in a mature, heart based manner you learn your weaknesses but at the same time you turn those into strengths because the lessons were learned. You gained more knowledge and chances are you won’t make the same mistakes again. We come into this life as innocent individuals that bring joy to others. As we grow over the years we collect experiences so we have more knowledge about finding our way to back to the innocent being who never wants to cause harm to others and only wants to bring joy. When you begin to understand yourself and you truly work on changing for the better suddenly life brings you joy. Once you are able to feel joy within it will then be branched out to others and it will attract more joy your way. As you collect knowledge and use it to better yourself and the world your innocence is returned and your life has come full circle.


Love Yourself- like I said in the blog, try to understand yourself more so you can learn to love yourself more.

Patience- things take time so try not to rush through life. Let it all happen as it is meant to so you don’t miss out on the learning experience. If you can change yourself into a more patient person then life will calm down. Sometimes it’s just a crazy day that needs to go by or maybe it’s an extremely challenging time in your life but the more anxious you get the harder it will be for you so try to stop and breathe as needed.

The card for the month of June- 8 of Ariel- says have pride and it’s working time- do what needs to be done and take pride in the hard work.

Always Believe…

Shiny Stars

I thank God for my gifts and for helping me throughout my life. I ask my Angels to guide me as I write especially Archangel Gabriel and I thank them for their support. I hold the intent all of you will learn to go with the flow.

I just got back from Disney World today and we had a great time but I’m also totally exhausted. I’m getting the nudge to write so I’m listening but I really have no idea which direction this one is going to go. I’m feeling it’s about focusing on the journey and not the destination. We will see what is said.

So this one is about The Journey. Whenever I hear the saying “it’s about the journey not the destination” I sometimes think 1) it’s annoying and 2) the journey is the hard part so why not just focus on the destination so you have something positive to think about? But as usual time teaches me to observe the journey so I will find so many positives that will only make the destination so much better.

As I walked around the parks this week I would read the signs with Walt Disney’s quotes. The man had so much passion, determination and most important vision for bringing joy to anyone who entered his dream. I’m not sure how many times but I do know his ideas were smashed numerous times because people did not believe he could achieve his dream. I see 111- keep your thoughts positive. However, obviously he did not quit and now has created something that attracts people from all around the world. You can actually feel the positive energy that people have when they are in the park especially Magic Kingdom. I live close to Philadelphia so not too many bring that positive energy in my area. This area seems to focus too much on getting to where they need to go rather than what can happen along the way. People rush everything and the attitudes are not always pleasant. Not everyone but a good amount of people. I always say I don’t belong on the East Coast so maybe one day when my kids are older I will make a move.

So I was inspired by Mr Disney and every time I let my mind wander to thinking about my personal dreams I got a sign telling me to keep going. It takes a lot of strength to live out your dreams. You have to learn to be your own cheerleader. People don’t always understand your ideas and passions so a lot of times you run into the dream squashers who bring you down. That’s the hardest part of the journey. When you find yourself slowing down or stopping because of what is going on around you rather than what you feel inside. Meaning you know deep inside what you want and need to do for yourself but you let others or tough situations steal your visions and you begin to lose hope. So what do you do to fix it? You remind yourself that the journey is part of getting to the destination. Those people and situations are necessary to test you so you can push harder and get closer to the desired place you wish to find. Rejection is part of life because we need to experience it so we can find something that fits us even more. My dream of publishing a children’s book started by entering a contest and it took being rejected for me to try again by coming up with the idea of self publishing which lead to me discovering the idea of using the books to raise awareness for organ donation. Had I listened to the doubters or the ones who thought self publishing was too risky because of the expense I would not have found my passion and purpose. This dream is not complete yet so I stay open to new ideas and opportunities that come to me so I can grow it even bigger. So the journey is teaching me a lot along the way and one day I will reach the final destination which will be so much more than I can imagine it to be.

You also have the journey of relationships in life. I personally have a few people who I wish I could wave a magic wand and make them disappear but it does not work so my only option is to learn from them. Yes they bring unwanted drama into my life but for some reason my soul needs to learn from it. These are the times when I want to jump to the destination and see when they will either be gone or things will be better. However, I can’t see the destination clearly unless I learned all of the lessons from the relationships. People don’t leave until the lessons are complete and people don’t change until the lessons are complete. In most cases you need to change as much as they need to as well. It’s those damn soul contracts that make you wonder WTF lol. It is very hard to keep all of your relationships balanced so try to stop and notice the guidance your Angels send to help you stay focused on the good. I often get guidance from the woodpecker whenever I start thinking about a certain person and just as my thoughts start to turn for the negative the woodpecker starts. They remind us to stop focusing on the things that don’t need too much attention. I laugh and then tell myself to let it go. I will usually find hearts in random spot whenever my thoughts are turning into ego-minded ones rather than loving ones. So they are my little nudges that help me to learn my faults along the journey too. This way I’m learning what I need to change so I can bring healing to the relationships on my end which help both sides too. As you heal and grow so do they. It’s how energy travels and keeps everything aligned to the highest level possible. Some people can feel like an anchor but the more you focus on improving yourself you should see the tension lightens up in time too. A lot of times it’s because you learn to let go and let them learn on their own. Or you let go and it stops them from draining your energy since they can’t take advantage of you anymore. Again it’s the journey and you are learning and growing so your destination will be pleasant. Either they will be with you and the relationship is healed or they will fall away along the journey and you will be set free. I see 333- they agree.

So whatever your story is the best way to deal with it is to find your lessons along the journey. See everything and everyone as a chance to learn. Collect each lesson as a way to change for the better. Understand this is your journey and it’s up to you to make the best of it and it’s up to you to make sure nobody or anything sways you from achieving what your soul seeks. Don’t ever stop making your own decisions based solely on what you desire and not what you think pleases everyone else. If your journey is similar to mine then chances are learning to stop pleasing everyone else will be a constant in your life. I see 333- they agree. Don’t be afraid to walk your own path even if nobody else understands. If you know deep within it’s what you want and need then that’s all you need to focus on. As you learn to appreciate and accept the journey then the destination will be reached more smoothly. If you learn to keep it together when life tries to steal your sunshine then nothing can stop you on the journey.

I’m a believer in wishing upon stars. I do it all the time and I’ve been given signs that my wishes will be granted. I see 333 again. However, those wishes can’t be granted until I’ve learned my lessons and I’m fully ready to receive. My journey teaches me what I need to learn so I am able to receive so in the mean time I try my best to learn and let nothing dull my shine. There’s always a choice to shine in the dark or get lost in the dark by losing the light within. It does not matter who you are because each of us have a journey filled with tests that can easily put our lights out. What matters is who you want to be at the end of the journey. That decision determines your destination. So do what you gotta do to make sure you get what you need from the journey. Keep your light bright when life tries to steal it. Wish upon the stars and don’t ever stop waiting for those to come true. Keep going, keep hoping, keep learning, keep growing, keep healing and when the journey ends you will be a shiny star.

One quote to live by is “If you believe you will achieve” Trust it and learn to live by it. It helps when life tries to dull your shine.


You Already Know- This one is telling you the answer is in you. Be honest with yourself and you will know what the card is talking about.

Leadership- This time I feel this card is telling you to take the lead in your own life. Try not to follow the path someone is choosing for you. Trust your own judgment and follow through with what you desire for yourself. It does not matter if nobody else understands all that matters is that it makes you happy and at peace.

Always Believe…

Batter Up

I thank God for my gifts and for helping me stay focused. I ask my Angels to guide me as I write especially Archangel Gabriel and I thank them for their signs. I hold the intent all of you will focus on your desires and not your fears.

It’s baseball season for Aydin and I’ve been testing out the power of positive energy every time he is up to bat. Right before he goes out I make sure I touch his bat and send the thought out that he will get a hit. He has only had 3 games so far but each time it has worked. He usually gets 2 strikes and then on the third swing he hits the ball. Each time the ball comes towards him I keep projecting the thought that he will hit it and I send that energy towards him. He is learning it works so now he brings the bat to me lol. I’m also teaching him to say “I’m gonna get a hit” to himself once he is out there and when he listened to me he hit the ball on the first swing. So when you desire something all you need to do is stay focused and keep projecting that energy out so the end result will be a positive one.

This one is about Letting Go of Fear. A couple of years ago I wrote a blog about balloons and I told a story about how the universe showed me once I let the string go my desires will come my way. Ever since that time whenever I’m struggling with overcoming fear I will find a string in odd places. So this always reminds me to let go and stop allowing fear to take me over. About a year ago I had some tests done to check to see if I had any sign of breast cancer and the day before my test I was driving and getting stressed out. I got to the point and asked for a sign about what to expect. Just at that moment a balloon flew over my car without any strings. I wanted to believe that was a sign that everything is good and just let go and thankfully it was true. It always amazes me how the signs just appear once we ask and they really do bring comfort.

So how do you know fear is getting the best of you? Feeling stressed is the biggest one, a million thoughts at one time running through your mind, feeling like you are frozen and can’t make a decision, wanting to make a step but your nerves get the best of you, visions of the worst happening rather than the best etc. This might sound ridiculous to some of you but for me it’s a big deal. My biggest fear right now is getting my nerve up to get back on the boat and out into the water. It’s been 6 months so now I have to start all over again with fighting my fear of the river. I had horrible dreams over the winter because I was letting the fear come back. I even took a safety course to help myself feel better but it may have made it worse knowing too much. I’m not so much afraid of being on the boat I have a fear of being thrown into the water because of an accident or anything else that could go wrong. Ron absolutely loves boating so I’m trying to enjoy it just the same but he knows he can leave me home and take his friends as much as he wants lol. So I’m trying and have not mastered it yet but I’m trying to stay focused on my desire rather than my fear. I try to look at it like everything else in life. Such as we never know what could happen at any minute. Driving on the road is probably more dangerous than boating and illness can strike you at any second so if I don’t stress about those things then why put so much negative energy towards this fear. It’s so crazy because once I’m out there on the water and especially when we anchor it becomes another world to me. It’s so therapeutic for me because I feel so disconnected to everything. Water is very healing so being totally surrounded by it actually does a lot of good for our souls. But the fear only lets me see the worst happening rather than the best so I deprive myself of relaxation since I let the fear win. Those are the things I’m working on so I can eliminate my fear or at least reduce it so I can enjoy myself and move forward.

So it’s been a few days and a new thought has come to mind about my fear of the river. See once we allow ourselves time to rest new ideas come to us which gives us what we desire. The idea of leaving the river and moving to a lake is our plan for next year. I see 222- keep the faith. This actually solves all of my issues with boating. This way I will still get to enjoy boating without the worries of barges, currents and obnoxious boaters who have no respect for the smaller boats. The river is extremely dangerous and there is no predicting the conditions so I’m always hesitant about taking my children on the boat. Which defeats the purpose of why we bought a boat. It was meant to be a family thing and my fear is blocking that from happening. So instead of calling it quits I will try again and project positive thoughts about the boat which is drawing in new ideas on how to make it enjoyable. I’m actually looking forward to the lake since it gave me a peaceful feeling. The river keeps giving me “I don’t belong here” feeling so it’s time to move away.

Again my personal situation may not be the same for you but I’m sure there are things in your lives that are filling you with fear. It could be anything but it takes the same work to overcome the fear. It takes time to calm yourself enough so new ideas come through. It takes looking for the positive rather than getting stuck on the negative. It takes getting yourself to the point that you believe you will overcome the fear even though it will not happen right away. Some things happen by taking little steps at a time. I see 555- change is coming. It’s takes having the nerve to swing at the ball being thrown your way. The ball being the fear that is going to hurt you if you don’t try to stop it. The fear that is robbing you from enjoying life to the fullest. I personally use anything that proves to be a huge fear as a way to challenge myself. I try to test to see if I can actually overcome it before I surrender to it. Some things I know I’m just not meant to do but it’s the things that I know on the other side of the fear I would really enjoy it. Like boating, I know I love it because it heals my soul but the illusion of what could go wrong stops me from being at peace(which is most likely linked to a past life trauma) . That annoys me so that also tells me I can’t surrender to the fear and I must keep fighting.

So life is often a mind game, a game of deciding if you will focus on the hit or focus on the strike. When you try and you believe then you get a hit. When you try and miss all you need to do is keep trying. There are no rules in life that say “you’re out”. You get to make your own rules with your life. You can scramble it up and move things around as much as you need. It’s when the strikes start knocking you down and you fear stepping up to the plate you will need to batter up.

I just now figured out why “baseballs” have been finding me all week. There was one sitting on the dock at the marina, one came flying out of someone’s yard and in front of our car when we left the marina, I found one in Aydin’s pj drawer and there was another but I can’t remember exactly. So now I know the “baseball” symbolizes keep fighting. Remember that for yourself too. But they will find you when you need a reminder too :)


Self-Care- this one reminds us that we need to take care of ourselves before we can take care of others. Be sure to take some time outs for yourself so you can build your strength again.

Archangel Metatron- this one tells that Archangel Metatron is who you need to call on as you step onto an intense spiritual journey. If you feel like you are starting to open up to the spirit world then call on him to help you understand the messages you are receiving.

Spiritual Understanding- This one comes from Archangel Raziel who is known for helping with psychic ability so he is another one to call on for clarity and calming if you feel overwhelmed by the spirit world.

I forgot about the monthly cards Doreen Virtues picked for the year so I will add Apr and May. April- New Beginnings- so if any big opportunities came your way this month then know this is a really good time to think about taking chances. May- High Priestess- which is heightened abilities and it says trust it. My gut tells me someone has just plopped their ass on the spiritual rollercoaster and is about to go on a serious ride lol. If this is you be ready for anything that comes your way and don’t try to understand it all. Just go with the flow. I’m here if you have any questions too.

Always Believe…