I thank God for my gifts and for giving me strength to keep going. I ask my Angels especially Archangel Gabriel to guide me as I write and I thank them for sending me signs. I hold the intent all of you will take the lessons from your journey and share them with others.
I hope everyone is feeling a little more energetic now that spring has arrived. Spring is a good time to clean out the old and make room for something new. I’ve decided to tackle the things that need some organizing in the house so I can prepare for a fun summer with my kids since they will both be home all summer long. Also I’m using my Spring as an opportunity to work hard so I can rest later. I also decided to clean up my attitude a little too. For the most part I have a positive attitude but I still can have a negative one towards myself at times. That’s what I’m working on changing so I can catch myself whenever I start to attack myself with a bad attitude. This won’t be completed by the time this is posted but hopefully I will have made some progress. It’s easy for all of us to knock ourselves down but how many times do you stop yourself and look back at how many things you have mastered? How many times have you really thought about the amount of knowledge you have collected so far? How many times have you been asked by the universe to share that knowledge and help another heal?
This one is about Sharing the Healing. I get these messages in the craziest of ways and at the craziest places too. I got a “share your healing” sign while I was shopping at Walmart. I did not realize it at first but by the time I left the store I started to catch on. I went to pick up a few things and I ended up getting some strawberries for my daughter, as I was shopping I had a thought to look for candy wrappers since I needed those for my Easter candy and figured since I was there I should check if they have them. I went to the back of the store where the party supplies are and I found a container of strawberries. At first I thought it was terrible that someone would just leave them there but when I left the store and found a strawberry on the ground next to my car door I knew this had more meaning. I learned the strawberry symbolizes “sending love and sharing healing”. So that was weird because on this particular day I was in “giving up” mode. #1 I don’t do well with PMS lol and my husband will tell you he takes a beating lol. It really can F with your mind and you get bitchy. Sorry if that is tmi but I’m making a point too. Anyway, it was a mood of WTF am I doing and why am I the one who has to do this work. Those are not my true feelings but on that day that’s how I felt. So my Angels gave me a nudge in the right direction and I was able to change my attitude and get back to doing my healing work as I was called to do.
The older I get the more my feelings change about my journey this far. Actually I feel my life has been the hardest during the last 5 years now that I’m aware of real life and have been working on “breaking the mold”. Just this month I realized the pattern of my journey and can see what is my major lesson in life.
In my life I have never had solid ground. Meaning I never really had “this will always been there for me”. The only exception is my marriage is very solid and my husband has never ever hurt me in any way. And I know he will always be there for me. However he did not come into my life until 12 yrs ago so there was already a lot that took place. He is kinda my reward for many lessons learned too. Here is an example and I’m not putting blame on anyone I’m just connecting the dots and showing the pattern. In my life I have parents who divorced when I was only 6 so I never really had a strong unit to set the example or did I or do I have a “house I grew up in” to go back to and walk in and see both parents still together setting the example and living in a home filled with lots of family memories. I have memories of changing residence from a house to a crappy apartment to another apartment with a new person living with us and would later be a step dad to moving into a another house and a new school all within 5 years. So there is no security foundation from the start. As I got older I have had quite a few friends who proved to be not “true friends”. When I needed a friend the most I was ridiculed and called nasty names that will probably take me the rest of my life to let go of 100%. So I don’t have a solid friendship that started in my childhood and lasted into adulthood. I have a lot of friends now so if you are reading this you are not the ones I was talking about. So clearly trust is one of my life lessons but my major lesson is about creating my own solid ground. Meaning I need to learn to stand on my own and find confidence in myself without depending on anyone else to catch me from falling. That’s why I didn’t start with solid ground and that’s why I never had a dependable side kick because I needed to learn on my own.
When I was younger I didn’t grow up feeling sorry for myself because I came from divorced parents. I just went with the flow and accepted life as it was for me. As I got older and started my “dating life” I never realized at the time how the lack of solid ground in my younger years set me up for the types of relationships I experienced. Oye Vey lol Now that I’m dare I say “mature” I see and understand how each experience was creating who I’m today. Even my personal struggle of accepting my spiritual gifts taught me confidence and helped me build my own solid foundation. I learn better by experience than example or books so for me it makes sense that I had to figure it out on my own. And without those experiences I would not have anything to blog about so I can do my healing work and become freakishly comfortable with sharing the nitty gritty of my life with people I have never met lol. These blogs are really getting out there now and at this point I just laugh and wonder who is this person I have become and who are these people who actually listen to me lol. Just kidding I appreciate all of you for reading and I truly hope these have helped even if in the smallest way. I see 333 – they agree:)
So think about what’s your story. Disect your life and figure out the pattern. When you find the pattern you are able to see the growth along the path too. You find the age you woke up and said I’m done with this and you took a new road. Don’t worry if it happened later in life because most of us don’t “find ourselves” until mid thirties or later. I’m still collecting pieces of myself and probably will be for the rest of my life. So don’t stress about when you woke up but focus more on the pattern in your life so you can figure out what you are meant learn. You have a story that needs to be told so do try to figure it out.
Sometimes we already know what our story is but we are too insecure to share it. Fear of being judged, fear of looking like we made too many mistakes along the journey, fear of sharing our weak moments and it goes on and on. This is why confidence is so important to succeed in life. Without it we create many blocks and never find satisfaction. Confidence is not something anyone can teach you, they can try to build it up in you but YOU are the only one who can increase it in yourself. Being someone who needed to create her own solid ground, the only way I have made myself stronger was by having more confidence in myself. No matter how many people tried to cheer me on along the way the only time I really felt confident was when I truly believed in myself. Not caring who judged me, not being ashamed of my mistakes and having the strength to share my weaknesses. Those 3 things were major blocks in my life at one point and now I can feel really good about myself since I have overcome those blocks and share my story too.
So the first step is tell yourself your story. Think about your journey and make some mental notes about how you became who you are today. Ask yourself what do you have to offer to someone else so they can heal from your story too. Ask yourself what are you ashamed of along your journey. Now figure out the lesson in that shame so you can remove the block. Once you get over the shame you will be able to share it in your story. Chances are you are not the only one who made those mistakes in life. We all have screwed up at some point in life and most likely many times. If only everyone admitted that more freely so people would to stop trying to convince others they have it all together. That’s why it’s important to share your story. There are so many people who are really hurting and they get bombarded with “phony stories” from the ones who put on a show in life which makes them feel worse since their story may not be as “perfect and blessed”. Healing comes from truth and the more honest you are with others the more they are willing to listen. As they listen they are learning and you will be releasing since you are sharing your secrets that needed to go. It’s a win – win and once you start sharing your story you will understand what I mean. Good things happen when you open up.
I’m going to add this message since it’s a strong one- someone REALLY needs to step up to the plate right now, there is someone who is struggling with fear about getting out there and doing the healing work they have been called to do. You will know if it’s you because you will feel it right now in your stomach and chest area as you are reading this. It’s the nudge and it’s the fear getting stirred up inside. The only way to rise above the fear is to let it go and take a chance. If it’s your true purpose then once you tell yourself you are ready the universe will support you in any way that is needed. You just need to tell yourself you are ready and then shut the ego down so you can listen to the guidance that will come. I hope you make the right decision!!
So back to everyone…we all have a journey and we all have a piece of something that another is looking for along their own journey. It can be knowledge, friendship, guidance or really anything that will be helpful for them to go on. We are all healers in life and when you share anything about yourself you are giving healing. People NEED to know they are not alone in this crazy life. They really want to know somebody else can relate to what they have experienced or are experiencing now. It’s calming and that’s healing. Sometimes you find the ones who want to know your story but they don’t share theirs. They are not ready yet but that does not mean they won’t get some healing from yours. Just try to respect that they need more time to open up.
When you share your personal story keep in mind even though someone has not had the exact same experience as you there may still be parts of your story that they connect with and it will help them too. Ex. My friend Holly wrote a book about her journey with illness. In the book she talks about what was going through her mind and how the experience changed her on many levels too. As I was reading her book I was connecting with everything she went through and actually we were going through it at the same time too. We didn’t know each other then but it was interesting that our souls were shifting in the same way at the same time. Anyway, some of the things she explained in her book helped me a lot because our thinking was on the same page and it made me realize someone else out there understands. I see 222. So I found comfort in knowing somebody else has dealt with the life shattering ,confusing state of mind and came out a new person with a lot of faith and passion to help others heal. So even though I was not dealing with cancer I still was going through a serious soul changing process and her words made sense to me and were reassuring that this is how life works when God wants to kick your ass to make you stronger. I see 333- they agree. BTW Her book is called Always A Loveolution by Holly Peckskamp. You can find it on Amazon too.
So get out there with your story. Don’t be afraid of being judged or revealing your weak moments because you might just help someone through the worst time of their life. I often push myself when I write these because if it is one that is about my rough moments I try to keep in mind “what if someone really needs this” then it gives me the strength to open up. Too many closed hearts in this world so we need more people to open theirs up. Too many phonies trying to portray the “perfect” life so we need more people to be real. Too many selfish people in the world so we need more sharing. You may have just the right words but you won’t really know until you share. Share the love, share the healing and when a strawberry shows up in your life let it remind you to keep sharing.
Make sure you read the words on the pic too! I tried to move the photo to the end but have not figured out how to do that yet. I was just excited I was able to get the pic on:) It’s the little things that me make me happy lol.
Prioritize- it’s time to get organized and make some steps in the right direction. Call on your Angels if you need help and they will give you ideas so improvements can be made. Make a list of your goals and start to jot down any ideas that come to mind. Those will be little nudges from your guides about which steps to take and in which order too. Be open to the guidance and it will come.
Make a Wish- send out what you wish to return:)